Yesterday you asked: “How much longer will I stay here?”
My answer was: “Until you die”.
“I want to participate in life”, you said.
I heard your Spirit speaking.
She is forever young and cannot find Her way in the home for elderly people where you live.
"The desire of your Spirit keeps you here on earth", I pondered, "close to me, even though your mental faculties are failing and the possibilities of your body are declining."
I hear your desire to live, regardless the challenges you are facing.
It is clear to me now that we are not our bodies, we are free.
Who are we?
Sometimes daily life asks so much of my time and attention that the feeling of living in a whirlpool of events creeps up on me.
I then feel like a hamster running on her wheel and hear a plaintive voice deep inside that wants me to let go of the program and listen to what wants to be heard and seen instead.
Today is such a day that I have given in to this.
Right away I feel the space to write, to paint, to sing, to rest.
My creative being rejoices.
I cherish my true self in the silence of my being
Peace on earth
I wish each of you a sparkling New Year
It was exciting to make this painting.
The bird that all of a sudden appeared in front of her face…and all the time she had more dots…
I wanted to paint as free as I could and finished precise as always.
Her name changed at times and was clear to me at the end.
Finally I understand on a deeper level that the destination of our lives is not to be found in a point in the future, but in our lives now.
Our soul wants to experience what it's like to live on Earth.
That is why it is essential to learn to listen to our inner selves, to feel what we want to do.
By this attitude of listening it is easier to notice that we are surrounded by the beauty of creation and that everything is enfolded and permeated by silence.
We then also notice how free we are to try something new, to make mistakes and retrace our steps, to change course.
As we recover the harmony within ourselves, we find more joy as a result, because our inner self is happy that we don’t leave her behind.
There is still much to discover, but again, the goal is not about the end point of our search but about the journey itself.
Yesterday I let the last idea from my book Wholeness complete enter me.
In this book that is so dear to me I have come to the conclusion that we create with our will and that it is so important to be conscious of the thoughts we choose to cherish.
Apparently I need to remind myself of this, again and again.
Sometimes life throws me out of balance and then I search for the right action to recover.
Often this has to do with letting myself be heard.
Initially my inner voice is only audible because there is chaos in my head and sadness in my body.
By examining what is needed to improve the condition I feel contact with myself and with my environment again.
I know I have taken the right action when my inner self is peaceful.
The exposition has ended, the paintings are back in my home.
I notice that painting is a process of ever deeper listening to my inner self and sensing her.
My inner self is delighted.