What happens when we accept our problems and see the difficulties we experience in our lives as our greatest teachers?
I feel that these statements are true and I also know so well my reluctance to write about this, for fear that I would deny the suffering of people.
On the contrary.
By allowing the feeling of suffering in my life I needed to look for ways to return to balance and to search deeper than I did before.
Where does this lead to?
By ever again returning to simply being present, I can see the challenges as an encouragement to live more and more in the presence of a silent force that leads us.
This painting is far from finished.
This is the underlayer for a new painting.
Shiloh will take two years for the instructions for this work of art, but I can already taste the atmosphere of her presence…
Yesterday you asked: “How much longer will I stay here?”
My answer was: “Until you die”.
“I want to participate in life”, you said.
I heard your Spirit speaking.
Your Spirit is forever young and she cannot find her way in the home for elderly people where you live.
"The desire of your Spirit keeps you here on earth", I pondered, "close to me, even though your mental faculties are failing and the possibilities of your body are declining."
I hear your desire to live, regardless the challenges you are facing.
It is clear to me now that we are not limited to our bodies, we are free.
Who are we?
Sometimes daily life asks so much of my time and attention that the feeling of living in a whirlpool of events creeps up on me.
I then feel like a hamster running on her wheel and hear a plaintive voice deep inside that wants me to let go of the program and listen to what wants to be heard and seen instead.
Today is such a day that I have given in to this.
Right away I feel the space to write, to paint, to sing, to rest.
My creative being rejoices.
I cherish my true self in the silence of my being
Peace on earth
I wish each of you a sparkling New Year
It was exciting to make this painting.
The bird that all of a sudden appeared in front of her face…and all the time she had more dots…
I wanted to paint as free as I could and finished precise as always.
Her name changed at times and was clear to me at the end.
Finally I understand on a deeper level that the destination of our lives is not to be found in a point in the future, but in our lives now.
Our soul wants to experience what it's like to live on Earth.
That is why it is essential to learn to listen to our inner selves, to feel what we want to do.
By this attitude of listening it is easier to notice that we are surrounded by the beauty of creation and that everything is enfolded and permeated by silence.
We then also notice how free we are to try something new, to make mistakes and retrace our steps, to change course.
As we recover the harmony within ourselves, we find more joy as a result, because our inner self is happy that we don’t leave her behind.
There is still much to discover, but again, the goal is not about the end point of our search but about the journey itself.