Now that many activities are canceled it feels good to be at home, needing quiet time, reconsidering what I find important.
Deep listening, painting, feeling...
It is truly the Art of Allowing through discovering what wants to happen and what brings me joy.
The task at hand seems to be to find out how we can be aligned with ourselves in a deeper way.
There is a Power that leads us by letting us know what warms us, feeds us, brings us joy.
This Power is always here, even though we often don't listen to it.
It feels like a deep wish, a deep desire, a longing that is not always fulfilled immediately.
It is a signpost on our way to a fuller life.
In my book Wholeness complete I write, May my search for Light be life-enhancing.
This still rings true. It's an inner compass.
I want to listen to this depth, over and over.
It is the voice of my soul, my authenticity.
Since the death of my dear husband, I move through a period of transition.
I feel that a deeper layer of myself wants to present herself.
My thinking mind cannot make sense of this, and that’s why I have planned to write a poem every day, so that irrational thoughts get a chance to guide me in setting the course that’s indicated by my deeper self.
I'm glad I can write again.
Sometimes the masculine appears in my paintings, even though I intend to paint the feminine.
Two years ago I started this painting, and when I saw the image I didn't like it at first, but I could not do much about it.
In the meantime, my life has changed. My dear husband died.
The painting offers me comfort, because I see that he is in safe hands.
I also realize the importance of the masculine power that is part of me: The capacity of manifesting in the world, of bringing forward my deeper longings.
To not only listen to my desires, but also take initiative to bring them into form.
A new road has opened. I'm curious.
The wish to paint ever more freely from the inside is still here and leads to experimenting with new ways.
I made this painting during a Moon Magic course with Michal Shamoni.
The substrate was made rough with pumice stone gel and glass bead gel.
The woman is the connection between light and dark and between the right hand and the left.
It is a warm painting.
At times life is a school where we learn to remain peaceful and calm, even though circumstances are difficult.
I see this in my own life with a spouse who has dementia and overcoming stress was also one of the themes of a forum for mothers of SOS Children's Villages in Uganda.
I was there to teach painting.
As a mother, we tend to occupy ourselves with the others and during the forum the mothers were the ones who received the attention.
It was a rich, instructive, inspiring experience.
We concluded that we have grown more empowered as we have overcome difficult circumstances.
Both in our daily lives and in painting we can practise The Art of Allowing.
We do not have much to say about what happens to us and tomorrow everything may be different.
Opening myself for this is the challenge and through painting I practise to follow my heart and learn to allow what wants to happen.
I made this painting when I taught the method to someone else and the image reminds us to receive what's good.
She looks contemplative to me and expresses how I feel.
I made this painting in one day, as a preparation for a one day painting lesson I am going to give.
I used loose brushstrokes and it feels to me that the image is beyond words.
The bird above her head appeared by itself.
This painting was made by me while I taught the Art of Allowing to someone else.
I enjoy her calm presence.
She teaches me the beauty of imperfection and comforts me that doing less is good enough.